Silver Linings

January 5, 2013

2012 was epic.

It might have been was my worst year. Ever.

I really wanted to bash 2012 in a blog post.

I wanted to throttle 2012 in the worst way.

But 2012 didn’t do anything to me.

I annihilated 2012 all by myself.

I take that back. I had a little help (you know who/what you are).

I’ve spent the last few days thinking about 2012…and what I wanted to say about it.

I decided, at this point, I don’t want to say a @#$%ing word about it. I just want to move on (forward, actually).

Rather than reflect on all that 2012 could AND should have been, I’m just going to say this…

I obviously don’t learn lessons. I live them.

As painful as I made 2012 for myself (and a lot of other people), this was the only way it was going to happen. The hard way.

That being said, I carefully combed through 2012. And, despite my unparalleled knack for self-destruction, I managed to find the silver linings.

There were so many more than I remembered. And so many more than I could share (without boring the bangs off all of us).

I’d like to dedicate the following happy thoughts to the handful of people who shared the “real” highs and lows of the past year with me. These memories, the ones that put a sincere smile on my face, are for you. They’re for every cup of coffee, every bottle of wine, every sleepless night, every tear, every unreciprocated favor, every ounce of patience and every moment of understanding…even when you didn’t understand.

They’re even for the times you raised your voices. At me.

I know thank you doesn’t quite cut it (after all the trouble you’ve gone to for me), but it will have to do for now. I’ve still got a little lot of hard work to do.

Thank you for making these silver linings possible, amidst the perfect storm…

My business partner and I had the sincere pleasure of working with one of the most beautiful brides I have ever met, inside…and out.

 I started amusing myself by changing my friend’s names in my cell phone. It still gets me, every time.

Meet Judy. The neighborhood blow-up doll. She was arguably one of the best additions to this summer…until some dude deflated her.

I realized there really is no limit to a mother’s love. My mom even has an 8×10 of me in her bathroom. WTF.

 My friends humored me (at the ripe age of 33), not once, but twice…at the best birthday party on the planet…and a week later…in Sin City.

 I rocked a bikini, in public, for the first time in years. And much to Allison’s dismay, I danced like a damn fool in said bikini. Because I could/can. I plan on doing it again (for Allison, of course). I know, deep down, it’s her favorite thing. Right after Maren’s one piece swimsuits (that NO ONE else on the planet can wear) and Katie’s pearly white teeth and shimmering blonde hair. Katie sucks.

Somebody finally talked me into getting back in the water. Thank you… 

 I was sent the best school picture. Ever. Courtesy of the Schantz family.

 My best friends let me kick their kids out of their beds. Then they let me encourage them to make faces for my iPhone (while I told them what kind of moves their mom had on the dance floor, in her tube tops, when we were “kids”).

I added whiskey to my arsenal. Thanks for nothing Hook & Ladder

My friends at 3fold made me a blunt-banged business card. 

My ridiculously good looking cousins let me live vicariously through them. 

I laughed…so hard…and sang…so loud…and danced…so much…in Arizona.

I continued making out with cardboard cutouts of Justin Bieber at parties. But this party was special. There was a unicorn cake. And it was in New York. Near Times Square. Eat your heart out Selena Gomez.

 Speaking of 3fold, I watched my best friends learn, grow and succeed. Truly succeed. And they – I mean Gordon – looked SO good doing it.

 I watched my business partner create this.

I battled burgers in Denver AND Sacramento (THANK YOU Rodney). 

 We FINALLY planned a weekend…together.

 I went all Britney on this biatch.

I did not panic when a slimmer, hotter, silkier, more exotic version of my outfit showed up for dinner. Whatever Leslie. 

 And this happened.

Maren reminded me just how far a funny face will go…in the bathroom, in the shower, at the gym, at a bar, in the car…you get the point. And Katie showed me the importance of Vegas hair. I even let her talk me into side bangs (GASP!). We decided they were more complimentary to the volume she created at the crown (because that matters at a Vegas pool party, right?). 

“J. My” tried to kill these bangs in Seattle. With margaritas. She meant well. 

 Meghan put my face on my a$$. That’s real friendship.

 My friend, Jeff Jarwin, did my makeup for me the same day I cut all my hair off. I felt photo shoot fresh (I sort of acted like it too, if you couldn’t tell). Coincidentally, my perpetually pensive 2012 face was caught on camera. I like to call it “Locked Jaw.”

This photo reminds me…to let go.

I’m not smug enough to believe the worst is behind me.

It’s probably not.

I’ll never be perfect.

I don’t ever expect to be.

I can’t completely clean my slate.

That’s fine.

Regardless…

I got this.

{ 12 comments… read them below or add one }

Greg Hartle January 5, 2013 at 9:38 pm

you got this

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Natalie January 21, 2013 at 9:50 am

I totally do… 😉

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Haley January 5, 2013 at 9:50 pm

Nat, you look great! Love reading your blog, wishing you a spectacular 2013!

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Natalie January 21, 2013 at 9:52 am

Thank you so much Hale. I’m wishing we could have a San Miguel, 7th floor reunion…why haven’t we done that?

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Jill January 5, 2013 at 10:01 pm

Nat- oh how I miss you!!! You look more amazing everyday!! I can’t believe you put my favorite cheesy smile pic in- love it!!!! We did have the best time of our lives that week!!! Miss you so much-

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Natalie January 21, 2013 at 9:53 am

Jilly…I definitely miss you more.

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Mom January 5, 2013 at 10:11 pm

Watch out world the Bangs are back! Yeah 2013! Love you my 8×10!

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Natalie January 21, 2013 at 9:53 am

Bang, Bang Dee-licious.

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Sabrina January 11, 2013 at 4:20 pm

a whole lotta silver linings in the year! look at all the wonderful friends and adventures you had! meet you in Nashville, i hope? that looks like a good place for some singing and dancing. happy new year!

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Natalie January 21, 2013 at 9:53 am

I’m not sure if Nashville could handle our honky-tonking Sabrina. What do you think? LOL.

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Sabrina Michele January 18, 2013 at 12:40 am

Awesome.

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Natalie January 21, 2013 at 9:55 am

Thanks pretty lady. I think so too…even if it took me like seven hours to find some of the silver linings. I (with a little help, as I mentioned) made 2012 rough (so be it).

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