Natalie Would

January 23, 2012

Couple things to note before you dive in to this piece…

  1. I swear not all of my posts will be so estrogen driven. It’s purely coincidental that the last one was about labia and this one is about a really lame guy I used to date.
  2. I made sure Bob did not have any issues with this topic. I’m still testing Bob’s limits with re: to blog content. So far, he’s a saint.
  3. Out of the goodness of my heart, I actually contacted the fool that wrote me this letter (below) and asked him if he would mind if I skewered him on my blog for comedy’s sake. He said “put me to the fire.” Bottom line…he knows he makes for good content and he knows it’s all in good fun. Hopefully he’ll feel the same way after he sees the finished product. Hee Hee.
  4. I wrote this entire post with a grin on my face. It was sort of an evil grin, but a grin nonetheless. I just want to be clear – I am not bitter about this relationship. Anymore. This dude really was the worst boyfriend I have ever had but I’d be lying if I said I didn’t learn a few things along the way.
  5. I just created a new category on my blog called “The Ex Files.” I felt it was necessary after I was finished with this post. We’ve already established that I’m a little sick & twisted. At least I’m consistent. And there’s so much more where this came from.
  6. Last but not least – if you (said ex) – are reading this right now…thank you for letting me remind you (for the rest of our lives) that you were simply “the worst.” And thank you for letting me publicly mock something very personal. You are such a good sport. XOXO.

Drum Roll Please…

I stumbled on this letter while I was looking for a photo for a totally different topic/post. I actually kind of believe the content in the letter…years later. But, I remember how I felt when I got it from “him.” So I offered up my translation as if it were then. It’s so much better than his bull@#$% version. While I harbor no hard feelings towards this ex today…I’m still convinced that my translation is the truth. He was such a piece of work.

He said…

Natalie,

I know you probably don’t want to hear from me, but I just wanted to get a few things off my chest. Writing you is the only way that I could get it out. I just want to apologize for being probably the worst boyfriend you have ever had. I realize there are a lot of things that I need to work on emotionally and mentally when it comes to being in a relationship with anyone. I know that I treated someone that I cared about really shitty because of my own personal battles, and that was not fair to you. There are a lot of things in my past relationships that I still hold on to, and that has created a wall that destroyed something great. I know it is something that I must work on; I am not trying to use that as an excuse for thing going bad with us. I think that I felt myself getting really involved with you and I felt like I was losing control of the situation and then I let myself mess things up. It is a dumb defense mechanism of mine that I have to get rid of. There are probably a lot of things I could have done different to keep from losing you, but I just don’t feel that I deserve someone like you right now, because I couldn’t give you the attention and affection that you should always have. Whether you know it or not you were really good for me, I don’t think anyone in my life has treated me and cared for me like you did. I want you to know that I would never purposely hurt you; I never intended things to be so bad. I just get caught up in my own head and forget that there is another person involved in the relationship. I hope you know that I cared for you and will always care for you. Natalie you are an amazing woman, I hope one day you can forgive me for my stupidity. I hope nothing but the best for you; you are going to get everything you want and deserve in life.

Ex

Translation (I assure you, this is what he really meant)…

Natalie,

I know you wanted me to get hit by a car. But I’m still alive. And I’d like to clear my conscience. I’m going to do it in writing because I don’t have the balls to look you in the face…especially not after that cocktail waitress acted so surprised when you introduced yourself as my girlfriend. It just didn’t seem relevant when I brought her home. I know I’m the worst boyfriend you have ever had. As you know, I have worked hard for that honor. I know you think I need to work on some things. I probably do. To be totally honest (which isn’t easy for me), it is way more fun to be just the way I am. I like my baggage. It never gets in the way of me picking up on chicks. Sure, you’ve found a few napkins with numbers, a few ladies have called in the middle of the night and there has been a few long blonde hairs on my bathroom floor – but there have been so many more. You really don’t know the half of it. I could work on my issues. But that seems like it would take a lot of energy and effort. Instead of doing that for you, I just want you to try not to feel totally insulted when I say, “it’s not you, it’s me” AND “I don’t deserve you.” I could have come up with something more sincere or original. But I don’t see the point. You and I both know; I’m better at drinking and wearing striped shirts than I have ever been at anything else. I admit; you are the best thing that has ever happened to me. But vodka is so much less maintenance. Why don’t we just raise our glasses to the few good times we had before you figured out that I’m only ever going to be fully committed to one person – ridiculously good looking me. I’m actually shocked you stuck it out this long. You probably should have listened to your friends when they told you I was a dead end. It would have saved you so many sleepless nights…like the night when your apartment flooded, but I was on a date so my roommate came over and helped you move your furniture away from the walls where water was seeping in. I should thank him again for covering for me. In any event, I know this relationship is going to have an impact on the way you treat men moving forward. You may even start acting more like me than you. Don’t say I never gave you anything. I hope one day, when I reach out to you (because I will), that you’ll respond. I also hope that you’ll be rich and/or famous by then. I’m pretty sure you could be and I want in on that. At the very least, if you respond, knowing you don’t hate me anymore would feed my ego. And you know how I love that.

Ex

Like I said…this post isn’t about payback or revenge. Dummy (I’m running out of names since I swore I wouldn’t use his real one) and I made nice a long time ago. This post is because I can. And I would. Of course, I have dated men I would NOT do this to. This is just not one of them (insert evil last laugh here).

I heart Jesse James and other perpetual, arrogant assholes.

{ 11 comments… read them below or add one }

Tammy January 23, 2012 at 4:32 pm

As I’ve already told you in summer, I love the way you are dealing with words. Sarcasm is the best ability to insult idiots without them realizing it.

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Natalie January 24, 2012 at 7:09 am

Sarcasm and I are getting along marvelously these days. 😉

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lindsay w January 23, 2012 at 4:38 pm

As I was reading the first letter, I understood all the a$$hole speak. Unfortunately, I couldve written this myself! Stupid selfish men…

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Natalie January 24, 2012 at 7:09 am

Unfortunately, I can’t give him all the credit. I’ve certainly done my fair share of stupid selfish things. But…he started it. LOL.

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sarah January 23, 2012 at 9:36 pm

I love this! I have often thought about blogging about past dates/relationships. God knows there has been a few while on that quest to find Mr Right!

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Natalie January 24, 2012 at 7:10 am

Thanks for reading Sarah! And I promise…there’s plenty more EXamples to come.

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Melissa Villarama January 25, 2012 at 12:43 am

<3 this post! I think we dated the same guy lol! I'll have to share some stories with you soon 🙂

Cheers to exes. Or to hope they get hit by a car… 🙂

-Melissa

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Dana P January 25, 2012 at 8:45 pm

Favorite post so far! It seems like such a long time ago when we were both dating men. Thank God we upgraded since then!

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Natalie February 1, 2012 at 6:37 am

Laughing so hard. I can’t believe this one is your favorite? I should have thrown some Michelle Branch lyrics in there for good measure. XOXO.

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danielle January 25, 2012 at 9:45 pm

Oh sweet sweet Natalie….I too have dated this “type”……you are not alone! I had hoped that he drowned in the ocean (being that we live in Miami)…..and the funny part was, that he almost did! Oops…..that hex stuff really works! Since the “accident” (evil laugh), I have moved on, married , had children and I was able to laugh my as off……having recently seen him at a mutual friends wedding! He has lost all of his hair, appeared much shorter and rounder than I ever remembered and just looked pathetic….while I maintain, and proudly I might add, my HOT MOMMA status! 🙂
Cheers ladies……to the EX! ha!

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Natalie February 1, 2012 at 6:36 am

Funny…it’s not even the blog post that is really intriguing “the” ex. It’s all the comments that are catching his eye. Poor guy.

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